Begging..

I had a thought about what might be a good solution to my problem of getting back to school. I asked mom if she thought grandma would put the $545 I owe on her credit card and then I could pay her back once I get my financial aide. Mom thinks she probably would do that, but that leaves me with another problem... Asking Grandma. -sigh- I hate doing things like that.. I always feel so bad. Feels like that's all I ever call her for is favors. So, I'm waiting on dad to come home and I'll get his opinion.. I really want this to be an easy fix though. If dad thinks it's an ok idea, I'll just cowgirl up and call. I need to get back to school.. Cheers!

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Keeping Secrets is Hard!

So.. Travis and Dani came over to drop off Little Miss Precious so they could go to the Crawfish Festival. It was so hard for me not to talk to her belly! Lol. The minute we found out she was pregnant with Jena we started talking to her. Lol. I'm so excited knowing my niece or nephew is growing in there! :D I can't wait til she tells everyone! It's especially hard keeping it from Staci.. I tell her everything! -sigh- Oh well.. It's just a few weeks. I'll manage! Lol. Cheers!

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To Hell and Back

I always seem to be updating this... Lol. It is always my intention to write daily, and I never do. Hmm.. I'll try to fix that. I did just upload the droid on my phone.. Maybe that'll make it easier to do. :) Anyway... The title of this blog describes the past six months this family has survived. In October, my defibrillator fired, and I spent four days in the hospital. While there, it was discovered that the lead on it is weakening. As is the battery, now that it fired. Lol. So, that will have to be replaced... Possibly within the year. And it's gonna have to be open heart. My third. -Sigh- The good news is, in February I went for an appointment and I seem to have stabilized. That's me. That's where I am. Jena quit walking around Halloween. When we took her to the hospital the next week, they did an MRI and found a tumor in her chest, the size of an orange. They did emergency surgery and removed 20% of it, which was enough for them to biopsy, and to allow her to begin walking again. They diagnosed her with neuroblastoma, and she went through about four rounds of chemo. They discovered that the chemo wasn't working the way they wanted it to, so they opted to do surgery earlier than they would have before. They went in expecting to get maybe 50% of the tumor, and they were able to get 95%!!! She is doing soo good!! She's so strong and brave. They took another MRI in April, and they found two spots that they weren't sure about, but they think that it's just scar tissue. They're taking another MRI next month, I think. So, we're in a waiting pattern on that. Dani's grandfather fell while her grandma was gone out of town, and he's been in the hospital for about two months now, in and out of ICU. When they took him in he was dehydrated and was in renal failure. They're saying now that he's in congestive heart failure. So, again, another waiting pattern. -Sigh- But, for now, we're all stabilized and safe. That's the best that can be said. I did get good news today.. News that I'm the FIRST to get! Dani is pregnant!!!! I'm so excited. I want a nephew!!! :D:D:D:D Anyway.. That's all to write for now... Cheers!!

Good to be back!!

I forgot my password for these blogs for a loooooong time.. But I finally re set them so I will hopefully start blogging again soon. For tonight though, I'm off to bed. I'll update tomorrow. :D Cheers!

Thanksgiving is Coming!! :D

I'm super excited. Thursday is Thanksgiving, which means we're one holiday closer to Christmas!!!!! Yay!! My very favorite holiday ever! :D I just wish my Beloved could be here... -Sigh.- As a family we have so much to be thankful for this year though. We've had quite a few hardships, true, but God has his hand on us and is taking care of us as always. Jena's diagnosis of cancer is scary.. But it also could be worse. She only has one tumor, and that's it. It's not in her organs or bones, and the doctors are sure that she can be healed. As for me and my heart problems.. Well.. It's nothing I haven't been through before. Anyway.. The next couple of days are going to be extremely busy. Mom's got to take Jena and Dani to Houston to see the dr so they can check her white blood cells to make sure they're not too low after her first round of chemo, and I have to clean and disinfect the house... Which is something we'd have to do before Jena could come over anyway... Then Wednesday we're gonna start cooking. I get to cook the pies... Which is super exciting to me! :D Lol. I love baking pies. We're also doing at least the dressing... I think everything else will wait until Thursday. Now... How do I get my Beloved here with me for the holiday??? Lol. :)

Update

So... It's been a while since I blogged. Let's see.. I've been laid off again. Gigi went home, and she seems to be doing well. I've been looking for a job, but no luck yet. Staci's in school... she's in her Jr. year. I can't believe she's almost 17!! Not only that, but Jena's almost 1!!! :( My babies are growing up. We've moved into the house for the most part... There are still some things that need to be hung, etc that we haven't gotten to because dad has been working sooo much!! But, we'll get there. We've started going to Church on Sundays. It's nice. We go with Travis and Dani and the baby, and then we go have lunch afterward. I love being with the family. The first Sunday we went mom looked down at all of us in line on the pew and started crying!! She said she was just so happy and proud to look down and see us all. I think part of it may be that she hasn't really been in church truly since Aunt Cyndi died. Not that she stopped believing or anything, she just.. couldn't go to church for some reason. We were going to Dani's grandparent's church, which is a great church. We truly enjoy it, but it's so far away from us that we're not sure if we'll go anymore. We've been thinking about trying the church down the road from our house, but we'll see. Anyway... That's about all I have to say now... I miss my Beloved.. She's been busy with school and such, and my internet connection on my phone sucks lately, so I haven't been able to talk to her for a while. But, we're doing ok, I think.. I just miss her. That's about it.... Lol..

A Place of Our Own... FINALLY!!!

So, mom finally reached the breaking point with Nana. It has been a long time coming, and it's about time if you ask me. We were staying with Nana at her request. Both, to help her with her bills and yard etc, and so we could try to save money to get a house of our own soon. At least that's what she said when she asked us to stay there a few years ago. Of course, when we moved in there, we were paying $800 a month, plus buying all the groceries, so we couldn't actually save a dime. Not to mention the fact that we did all the cooking, kept the house clean, and did the yard work. And did we get a drop of appreciation for all of this?? NO! All we got was criticism. For example: She went to Tennessee to work on her other house for a week or two back in March. We maintained the house on a regular basis, as we would if she was home, and then the weekend before her return we overhauled the house completely. Scrubbed the bathrooms, kitchen, floors, windows, not an inch of the house was left untidy. Not a speck of dust was to be seen, which, since it is a brick house with wood and tile flooring is not an easy task! The yard was mowed and weedeated, we even cleaned out the flowerbeds!! Do you think we got a "The house looks great" or "Thank you?" No. We got... "Why didn't you clean out the back fence?" Which, honestly is on par with what we expected to get, but it still hurts that the hard work and effort you put forth is ignored. As if that wasn't bad enough, she treated my mother abysmally. She was always critical of everything she did, she would go out and do things with her other daughter, which, is fine, except, she wouldn't even call and let us know anything and mom would have dinner ready and we would be waiting for her only for her to waltz in and say "Oh, I've already eaten." And she constantly lied about what she was doing, which was stupid because none of us gave a crap what she did, but it would aggravate when we found out she had lied, and it hurt mom to boot. But the final straw came when she accused my brother of stealing. When my brother was in school he took a photography class, and he paid my Nana $50 for an old Cannon camera she had. He used it, and it went into storage when we moved. Well, a few months ago she suddenly decided she wanted the camera back, and mom told her that we would get it when we got a chance to go out to storage. Well, we went to storage, brought the camera back, and it sat in mom's room for a while. Nana didn't bring it up again, and we forgot that she wanted it. Not a big deal. Well, one night Travis came over and he was standing there playing with the camera and showing his wife the lens. Nana saw this and became enraged, claiming Travis had gone into her room to steal the lens. Which, was untrue, the lens had been in the case when he opened it. He had purchased it with the camera. Nana threw a fit, saying she hadn't sold him the camera, she had lent it to him... A favored tactic of hers by the way... The wicker bed I sleep on now was purchased by my mother when she was younger, and Nana claimed years later it was hers and mom wound up having to purchase her own bed back from her mother! Anyway... There was a huge fight and mom told her that we would be out by the end of the week. The next day, mom went out and looked around and found us a house!! It's a tiny little thing. It has 3 bedrooms, so we all have our own space though. It does have only one bathroom, but we take turns using it. :) It's cute, and cozy, and we are slowly making it ours. We bought furniture and we're getting our pictures and things hung on the walls. We absolutely love having our own place even if it is just renting for now! And it's like, $50 a month cheaper, so we're saving money there and on groceries! It's so great not to have to walk around on egg shells so as not to upset Nana anymore. We're so happy. The only other flaw it has besides being only 1 bathroom is that our internet has been spotty since we moved. We're not sure if there's something wrong with the card, or if it's because of all the trees. It works better on my computer, but I'm not able to get it very often unfortunately. Other than that though, it's great!! As soon as we get everything settled, I'll post pictures for everyone to see. :)